Live: Kerrilee reads Stop All the Clocks

[kerrilee]

Husband: wait...I thought you read gay porn. Why does gay porn make you cry?

Idk.

iPad, check. Tissues, check. Coffee, check.



Let the Draco dying commence!

Update: 1/4 of the way through. Lots of deep breaths and wobbly breathing. Tissue count: 7.

The non-linear storyline helps. Oh, God. Funeral time. Harry put on Draco's favorite sweater. Ok. Gotta take a break to feed my feelings. Deep breaths.

Update: 2/3 finished. I've come to accept the steady flow of tears. They're sad tears, but so much more. I just love these mfers with all my heart. It's time for some Advil now. And I look like Harry after the stunning jinx and the collar of my shirt is tear soaked. But it's beautiful and lovely and wonderful. No regrets. Somehow Harry's grief is easier to bear. I guess because we've all been through it before. Not sure if I could handle this if it were the other way around. God, no.

Update: And to think I dared to be proud of myself for holding up so well. First the warehouse, now the sock drawer discovery. I hate you FTS.

Update: oh, God it's here. I don't know if I can read it. *curls into fetal position*

Update: Finished + 10 mins and still crying. Heart is in exactly eleven million pieces and I can't do a fucking Reparo. Final tissue count: 22.

Those are tears on my duvet.

So, it was everything I knew it would be. Emotional as all fuck. I mean we all love those boys like they are real. You just don't want Harry to keep hurting, but it just doesn't feel right for him to move on. Jfc, can I just stop crying, please?!? I do not regret reading this one bit even contrary to what the tissues, cursing and tear-soaked bedding might lead you to believe. It was every bit as wonderful as you'd expect from FTS.

Comments

[eidheann_writes]

I have been CACKLING at fts since you started reading ahahahahahahahaha

[kerrilee75.livejournal.com]

I can't breathe right now bc I'm crying so hard. I had to take a break. Fuuuuccckkk!! Stupid sock drawer.

[eidheann_writes]

I am doing my stupid happy dance and fts keeps asking what I'm saying to you XD ♥

[firethesound]

I'm sorry for making you cry. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[eidheann_writes]

She's lying btw

[kerrilee75.livejournal.com]

You're brats. Both of you. I hate you.

Just kidding. Kind of.

I hope this post isn't too self indulgent. It helps to be distracted. I sent her private LJ messages, too! So there are more mean words for her there.

Ok, going back into it.

[firethesound]

This post is amazing and you are amazing and I adore you and your mean words!

[eidheann_writes]

We are sitting in my basement staring at our phones and cackling. I may be doing happy dances. She keeps asking me what I'm saying this time..


(spoiler warning : I am *THE LEAST* supportive friend in the planet.)

[kerrilee75.livejournal.com]

Aside: I'm slightly indignant to the change in setting. Pittsburgh?!? I live in Cincinnati. *Bengal tiger growls at the Steelers and their misappropriation of Hufflepuff colors*

[capitu]

I believe you!

[eidheann_writes]

It's like I told her. "if you felt bad, you wouldn't be laughing"

[kerrilee75.livejournal.com]

I hate William.

They just got the call during tea. Oh, shit. I don't know if I can do this.

[capitu]

She laughs at our pain????

i can see that being true. XD

You know, for a while I thought of this fic and cried. EVIL FIRE!

[kerrilee75.livejournal.com]

Omg, I've been finished for 5 minutes and I can't stop crying. When will I stop crying?!??

[kerrilee75.livejournal.com]

YOU!! You are not sorry one bit!! OMG. You are brilliant and I hate you.

[eidheann_writes]

*cackles*

[kerrilee75.livejournal.com]

I'll probably be like that, too. If I can eventually stop crying this first time around. Godammit!!

[sassy-cissa.livejournal.com]

okay now I know I can't currently read this. Life is already too fragile here and this would push me over the edge. One day, however...one day...

[kerrilee75.livejournal.com]

My dear firethesound, I'm totally hugging you and wiping my snotty face on you and you deserve it and I love you and I hate you and now I don't have to read anymore of your stupid, brilliant stories for awhile so fuck off while I get over what you just did to me and Harry and Draco.

[oakstone730.livejournal.com]

YOu guys were together to witness? That is SO awesome!

[oakstone730.livejournal.com]

It was amazing - I wish I'd seen it unfold rather than catching it after it was over...

[birdsofshore]

Awwwwww I'm so glad you had this amazing experience.

And thank you for confirming for me once again that I shall never, NEVER read this fic, ever. :D

[firethesound]

I absolutely deserve snotty-face-wiping. ::hughughughughug::

This was so wonderful to see your reactions unfold. I do feel vaguely guilty for making you cry, but also very flattered. My words made you feel! Twenty-two tissues worth of feelings! And that's such an enormous compliment. I adore you. <3 <3 <3

[eidheann_writes]

YES! RUB THE SNOT ON HER!

[kerrilee75.livejournal.com]

That was completely unexpected to have you along for the ride! I forgive you already.

[kerrilee75.livejournal.com]

That was fun to hear you cackling along the whole time! And I learned how to do an LJ cut so I'm even more of a big girl now! The world is my oyster!!

[carpemermaid.livejournal.com]

I am still, STILL terrified of reading SATC. I'm the same, just thinking about the summary or seeing it on a reclist makes me choke up. I want to, I do. I love firethesound's work and I know it's a highly recommended story but oh god MCD just breaks my brain and destroys me!! I recommend a big cup of tea, some chocolate, and all of the fluffy/humor fics you can find, that's always my fix after reading fics that make me blubber like a baby ;) ❤️

[kerrilee75.livejournal.com]

So, randomly last night I thought of something from it and started tearing up.

Also, don't ever read Almost Like a Song. It's MCD and fucking beautiful but I will probably die only having read those two MCD stories. I've done it, I'm good. No more. (Until FTS writes another one and probably makes me eat my words.)